rainbow and a temple. Two symbols not often seen next to each other. I expect their appearance together will cause some people no small amount of outrage. Those offended will probably fall into two camps. There will be those who feel maligned by the tarnishing of the purity of their temples with the symbol of group of people often portrayed as godless sex mongers. Then there will be the godless sex mongers who are offended by being associated with a group of people often protrayed as self-righteous, intolerant and uncaring.

That being said, it is not very likely that many of either group will find this page. Nevertheless, the juxtaposition of these two seemingly mutually exclusive belief systems is the paradox that is my life. I am gay. There doesn't seem to be much that I can do about it, and believe me I've tried. Despite the fact that the LDS Church (hereafter, the Church) rejects my emotions and feelings as misguided and mistaken at best doesn't seem to affect my belief in the gospel as it has been taught to me by said Church. So what do to? Who is wrong? Me? The Church? Either? Neither? Both?

Here then you find the writings of one individual and his quest for happiness, his struggle to reconcile what he feels with what he believes.